SadNeSs

2 days back,I just got my Basic Mathmatics for Economics' result. I was quite sad about that. What I got is only 7 / 15. But a lot of my classmate got better than me,opps,not better,is much more better. Looking at them,I felt that I am so far apart from them. I am not as good as them,I am not as hardworking as them,I am not as clever as them.

Yesterday,I got my Microeconomics result. It is better,but I am not satisfied with it. I got 7 / 10. Some of my classmates can get 10/10.cool huh? But,it is not me. I hope that I can get better result in other subject as my math is not good. At least,my CGPA will be better. I know that I cant be "down" like this. I need to recover as soon as possible so that I can really concentrate and focus on my studies.

I feel sad because I feel that I am helpless to 1 of my best back in Malaysia. She felt left behind,she felt lonely. I really cant help her much. I want to "pull" her out from the negative world. I want she cheer up like what she used to be. I want to say "sorry" to her for left her out during the outings. But I also want to tell her that,no matter what happen in life,I will always think bout "the triplet". I wont give up 2 of you.

Cheer up my friend. Life will bring a lot of circumtances to us. We need to learn and over come it so that we can grow and achieve what we want in future. I understand your feeling as I am always left behind last time. Still remember? I can understand it because I am 1 of them who walk through all these. I learn to be strong because I have to...

Take care,ok?

7 comments:

Lovely Life... said...

wah...both of u oso sound like i m d one tat left u 2 behind ler... sound like i m d one tat never left behind before! T_T

wat la..i oso wan to say..'still remeber'..still remember tat last time form 2 when i juz step into cadet geng's..u guys boycott me! juz tat those senior gav me many chances in many activities..make u all feel unfair..den something bad happen..i m d one lucky coz i tat day i went back earlier..so i m not involve in it..after tat u all even don fren me..tat time i oso very down n sad lo..coz i m innocent.. T_T i m LEFT BEHIND lo..not only LEFT BEHIND..but is lost a few frenship.. but i still hav to go on my life wat..but then i still try my best to facing u all mer..stand all d 'face' tat u guys gav me..juz put all d tears deep inside heart but n still hav to face u all wif smile..n at last..c..we can becm best frens..

actually i really forget those unhappy days liao..bcoz of u..i crash my mind to think wat happened..n at last i rmb those tough life..n i still rmb u last time oso mad at me becoz of prefect..haha! aiseh..ppl capable ma..kekeke~ juz kidding la..

tcy,everyone got diff thinking..u cant say tat v don not understand ur feeling juz mayb we don agree wif u n only ask u to think positively..all of us got our own tough story n suffer things..but we hav to learn how to get over wif this..all of us ask u to cheer up coz we love u..u noe..v r so sad when u always see d world so negatively..we try our best to help u get rid of tat thinking.. juz tat don wan to see u so suffer n wanna u to be more happy!

ViNcenT said...

Hello,I did not meant any thing when I typed that ok? I dont even think that you are the 1 who left me behind that day,ok?

I just recall bout the cadet and prefect life that used to be. Honestly,you are lucky. You still have your "bro" and other ppl such as TSH,bla bla bla who always support and stand by your side. The meaning of "still remember" is what happened on me when I am in cadet. I was the 1 who always left behind. No one remember me during outings,no one (except both of you) care bout my feelings and no one remember my birthday.

Honestly,I felt happy when I am in prefetorial board starting from F4. I am happy because that is what I like to be,and I feel secure in prefectorial board. Although some times it is not that happy,the job is tough,but I enjoy it. I even more enjoy being a Head Prefect. I like the feeling of "dipandang tinggi". I lik eit because it is challenging and every 1 also have to "see my face". I feel important at that moment.

Sorry for saying all this so call "rubbish" for you guys. But it is really what I enjoy during the high school period.

Steph and Fung,I feel lucky for having both of you in my life too. If without both of you,I surely will be lonely all the while,until today. Both of you are part of my life. Remember,no matter what happen,must keep in touch ya. :)

StePhZz said...

haha...
no more argue-ing here pls...
who got left behind and stuff should no longer be the topic la...
sorry la cause made u all trash back the past...
dump it aside ya??

abt myself,
things started to be different when i ended my form 5.
when options are a lot, and my ability is limited, decision is always a hard thing to make.
stress figured that i am the right person to attack, and to relieve myself i choose to eat all i can.
that is when i got this eating disorder.
but i know that u all will support me till the end.
i might not be able to think so optimistically,
but i'll try to change my perseption a lil' everyday.
no worries ya?
and thank u for ur continous support and care.

happy mooncake festival!
love u both there who are far far away from home.

Lovely Life... said...

everyone oso like d feeling of dipandang tinggi ler..ya..i admit tat i m always quite lucky coz having many ppl stand by my side..n appreciate d chance they gave me..but doesn't mean tat i m JUZ lucky..ppl r not blind..there r reason tat they giv d chance to me..they trust me..i oso got put many afford n work hard in everything tat they ask me to do.. juz like u always say u got study hard for ur stpm..not tat u r lucky rite?! n juz like after u work so hard..at last u can get wat u giv..understand?!

not wan to argue wif u juz tat wanna u to understand there is no ppl get anything without hard working..but is true tat tis world is unfair..we cant 100% get back wat we had 'fu chu'..but for sure...we get 0% if we don do anything...okla..i think all these simple 'dao li' u oso understand ler..


well...don talk those geli de sentences liao..juz tat.. buddies forever lor!!

ViNcenT said...

Sounds like I did not "fu chu" during cadet. Blek. Just like what you say,"they are not blind". But,for me,they are extremely blind!!

I am happy to get what I wan after every thing that I gave. But it is in prefectorial board,NOT cadet.

Although there are something that I am not really like about cadet,but,honestly,I like the friendship that I gain. Frienship betwen us and also mama they all.

I thank to cadet as well,coz 3 of us starting to be closer and closer through it. I think it also because it had train me alot. Train me to learn how to forgive others,forget what ever that others did to me,and to be strong.

just wanna let ypu guys know,no matter what,I love you guys. :)

ViNcenT said...

Sounds like I did not "fu chu" during cadet. Blek. Just like what you say,"they are not blind". But,for me,they are extremely blind!!

I am happy to get what I wan after every thing that I gave. But it is in prefectorial board,NOT cadet.

Although there are something that I am not really like about cadet,but,honestly,I like the friendship that I gain. Frienship betwen us and also mama they all.

I thank to cadet as well,coz 3 of us starting to be closer and closer through it. I thank it also because it had train me alot. Train me to learn how to forgive others,forget what ever that others did to me,and to be strong.

just wanna let you guys know,no matter what,I love you guys. :)

εγrιquε said...

omg.. listening to u guys talk this way made me sho envious.. >o<

yupz, frenships are always the sweet thing for your whole life.

neways dudes and gals, keep in touch yea... and b sure to attend each others WEDDING!!!