HK-Macau trip: Day 2

For day 2, it was the most exciting day for my whole HK-Macau trip, cause I got to go to the Disney land that I wanted to go for many years. Although it is not as good as US's like what every 1 said, but I still like it a lot.

Early in the morning, after having Dim Sum at 1 of the hotel nearby,we went to HK's most famous temple, Wong Dai Sin. The Dim Sum was super duper hyper and quadruple NICE!!!!!!! YOu confirm feel like eating when you look at the pictures. For Wong Dai Sin, it's nothing much for me.

These are only some of the Dim Sum we ate, actually we ate a lot more!!

Yummy!!


After a light lunch in the city area, we went to the HK Disney Land. AH!!!!!!! It was nice and fun!!!!! It was really enjoyable. You will know how enjoy am I after I upload the pictures.

Mm....will be uploading the pictures soon. Cause all my pictures are in my laptop back in SG. Now in Newcastle...hehe....

Disney Land's pictures.....

We were from this station....

to this station.

The Disney Parade....

At Tarzan's house

Lion King's musical

Sleeping Beauty's castle (at night)

Wanted to upload the fire work's video, but then cannot. Cause the file too big, couldn;t upload in Youtube. You guys can go search around, it was amazing!!! Nice!!

Hi guys...long time din post here d. No worry, all the HK and Europe pics will be upload soon. Ah, miss my family, miss my kitchen in hall 12, miss chinese food....

TS

HK-Macau Trip: Day 1

Last week was quite tired, because of giving tuition, working in the library and choir's intensive practises. Rushed back to KL on 22nd May and fly to Macau on 23rd. This time was not as excited as usual before I going over sea,haha. Really don no why? Maybe too tired? Or getting older already, so don have such feeling?

We reached the airport before lunch hour. The cargo is not as nice as KLIA. Mm....kinda disappointed. But then never mind, since that we are paying that cheap,haha. The air bus is kinda small, not much space to put our leg. Luckily is only 3 and half hour. If not, out butt and leg sure cram. =p


My sis and I -In the air bus-

We reached Macau and about 4:30pm. After that, we took a ferry to Hong Kong. That day was a bit tired, because of travelling here and there. But then, we still very excited and wanted to explore here and there after checking in into the hotel. The rooms are quite small, but 麻雀虽小,五脏俱全. We were staying in 上海街, which is very near to a lot of "pasar malam" and restaurant. The "pasar malam" has lots of things to see. But the thing that I am a bit shocked is, there are a lot of sex toys stalls all over the place. It's ssome thing that very hard to see in Singapore and Malaysia.

Before going back to the hotel, we had some nice desert at 1 of the desert shop nearby. HK's food was really nice. I love the desert and the dinner we had that day. That day was kinda tired, don have much energy to walk here and there. Slept quite early that night, because I wan to save more energy for my Disney Land at the next day,haha.

My mum's roast goose noodle
My pork rib rice, and it's nice!!

Nice desert after dinner

Busy busy busy...

I am quite busy recently due to the intensive choir training, working in library and giving tuition to a primary 5 naughty girl. But then, I still give myself some times to relax through COOKING!! Last Saturday was my "cooking day". I cooked sambal chicken and omelete for lunch, chicken with potatoes for dinner and "old cucmber" soup. =) Chicken with potatoes-I added some wine also lo....yum yum!!

Nice "old cucumber" soup

Yeap, I enjoyed myself through the process of cooking on that day. It is interesting that when you discover some new recipe when you any how add in some of the ingredient ( of course, the ingredient must :match" each other la).


Last Sunday, I went Katong to meet up with my god father and then proceed to SJI International. SJI International was having Asssisi Hospice Fun Day. The purpose of the event is to raise fund for the kids who have cancer. My job is to help him take care of the booth, and cleaning up at the end of the day. That day was so freaking hot, and...I still have to do so many stuffs,AH!!!!! Sien.... But then no choice, I still have to help him, sigh!

Recently, our instructor has chose a new song for the choir competition in Czech Republic. This is the link: http://yushantv.blogspot.com/search/label/%E5%8F%B0%E7%81%A3%E7%8E%89%E5%B1%B1%E9%9F%B3%E6%A8%82%E5%8F%B0 Just go to
台湾韵味薪团唱 and then click on [+]请点选此处,继续阅读(read more)全文. and then click [丢丢铜仔]. That is our new song for this competition. It's quite interesting, hope that you enjoy it too.

So. now is the time for us to memorise the whole song. Luckily it is still much more "doable" than the Akita Ondo that we sang before during choir concert. Hopefully we can prepare every thing on time before the competition and win something in that competition.

Looking forward to my Hong Kong and Europe trip as well. =)


进来的日子还过得不错。忙不算忙,空闲也不算太过的空闲。放假当儿,还得去教补习,拜访姑姑,也还得为合唱团的比赛做些筹备。

我像现在最忙的就是我们的Queen了。因为她是我们的主席。还有很多事情还瞪着她去忙呢!不过,我还蛮佩服她的能力。当然啦,她是我口中时常说的“才女”嘞,当然利害咯。

希望我们能顺顺利利的到捷克去比赛咯。不然我们一直以来的努力就可要白费了。NTU CAC Choir,加油咯!

Short Break

I went back home after all my papers. Miss me family so much!!! cause I din got to go back home during recess week due to choir concert. So happy....ate lots of nice food ans went shopping here and there.

Now, I am in Singapore again. Need to prepare for choir competition in Czech Republic.... Haha....NTU Choir...let's jia you together lo.

I'm FREE!!

Yuhoo....Finally....finally...I'm free!! No more exam, no more lecture notes, no more memorising formula, no more tutorials,at least for 3 months from now.

Today's paper was a disaster. It was so hard. Honestly, I really don have confident in this paper. Expecting another disaster in mid of June when the result is coming out,Ah!!!

Any way, just don bother about it first. What I wan now is, enjoy enjoy and enjoy!!

--------------------------------------------------------------------

15/04 - + + + + + + + + + + +
16/04 - + + + + + + + + +
17/04 - + + + + + + + + + + +
22/04 - + + + + + + + + + +
23/04 - + + + + + + + +
24/04 - + + + + + + + + + +(all gone!!)

1 more, 1 more to your 3 months holiday. Hang on!!! Hang on!!! 1 more.... Still got 5 and half hour, you will be FREE~~~~

--------------------------------------------------------------------

15/04 - + + + + + + + + + + +
16/04 - + + + + + + + + +
17/04 - + + + + + + + + + + +
22/04 - + + + + + + + + + +
23/04 - + + + + + + + + (5 down)
24/04 - Financial Economics

(1 more to go)

Fall Sick

Argh!!! Yesterday was really a disaster for me. Many essays and notes need to read for THE CHINESE ECONOMY paper, and guess what? I fall sick. Sore throat, flu, headache, bla bla bla... I whole night couldn't sleep but luckily I felt much much better this morning before the paper.

Thanks Eugene for his word of encouragement and SMS. This was what he sent me:

Psalm 145: 17-18
The LORD is righteous in all his way
and loving toward all he has made.
The LORD is near to all who call on him,
to all who call him in truth.

I am a bit upset for the paper just now. Hard and not enough time,sigh! Never mind, my dad is coming to NTU and visit me later, cheer up!!

-----------------------------------------------------------------

15/04 - + + + + + + + + + + +
16/04 - + + + + + + + + +
17/04 - + + + + + + + + + + +
22/04 - + + + + + + + + + + (4 down)
23/04 - Business Finance2
24/04 - Financial Economics

(2 more to go)

3 more to go!!

Yesterday's paper was....er....OK i guess? Cause I SU-ed that paper, so din really bother about it. While studying, also quite relax.

Early in the morning (3am I think), was raining and we were stucked in School of Biolological Sciences. So, the "breakfast gang" went crazy again and decided to study until this morning 7am. And guess what, we really did study until 7am and go for breakfast after that.

Now is 2:30pm, and i just woke up,haha. Gonna study again.... sien!

--------------------------------------------------------------------

15/04 - + + + + + + + + + + +
16/04 - + + + + + + + + +
17/04 - + + + + + + + + + + + (3 down)
22/04 - The Chinese Economy
23/04 - Business Finance
24/04 - Financial Economics

(3 more to go)

Jap Paper

OMG!!!! This paper is harder than expected! A lot of tricky question and tricky sentences to answer. The essay is even worst. The title is, "My Future". My brain was super exhausted. Ah!!!! Any way....overall still OK la ya...still need to study for tomorrow's paper,sien!

--------------------------------------------------------------------

15/04 - + + + + + + + + + + +
16/04 - + + + + + + + + + (2 down)
17/04 - E-business Management
22/04 - The Chinese Economy
23/04 - Business Finance
24/04 - Financial Economics

(4 more to go)

今日の しけん

きょうは International Monetaryのしけんが あります。ゆうべ International Monetary の ノートを 勉強をして、おぼえました。

今朝 6:45AMに おきました。それから はを みがいて、シャワーをあびて、朝ご飯をたべました。それから 勉強する前に、Chicken Essenceをのみました。

8じに 学校へ 行きました。しけんの ところの そばに 友達と いっしおうに ノートを 覚えましょう。それから しけんお ところに 入って、しけんの ししつもんを 先生に もらって いました。

今日の しけんを あまり簡単ではありません。少し難しかったですね。しつもんいちは すこし簡単ですが、しつもんにと さんと よんもむずかしかったです!! あまりわかりませんよ!! ざんねんですね。

しけんが おわってから 友達と ひるごはんを 食べて、りょうへ 帰りました。今 疲れました、寝たいです。あしたは 日本語の しけんが ありますから、あとで 日本語を 勉強します。

--------------------------------------------------------------------

15/04 - + + + + + + + + + + + (1 down)
16/04 - Japanese Language
17/04 - E-business Management
22/04 - The Chinese Economy
23/04 - Business Finance
24/04 - Financial Economics

(5 more to go)

4 more days to disaster...

4 more days to exam, but still not finish revising. Not every thing are fully understand. But surprisingly, this semester are not as stress as last semester. Probably it's because of I'm not taking any maths paper this sem? Or I just became more carefree?

Recently are super excited.... But not for exam, it's because of the Europe trip,haha. We discussed bout the trip quite often this week because need to confirm some details to Eugene by this week. Once I start searching through the net, I cant stop myself any more. Because I am just...SUPER EXCITED. Stop it, stop it!!! "Teng Seng, come on, you have 6 paper this sem, study!!!" This is what I always TRY TO tell myself. But, is this helps? Sonno....hehe...

15/04 - International Monetary
16/04 - Japanese Language
17/04 - E-business Management
22/04 - The Chinese Economy
23/04 - Business Finance
24/04 - Financial Economics

Jia you lo....every 1 who having exam this period, chiong ah!!!!!!!

EXAM EXAm EXam Exam exam...

Exam is driving me crazy!!
Have to study day and night
night and day...
I guess this is what I need to pay back,
After slacking throughout the semester.
Coffee, chicken essence, spirulina, energy bar
Is the thing that I consume the most during exam.
Have to wait for another 24 days to get rid of all this
yea....is quite early compared to others
but don be too happy
My papers are on 15,16,17
and 22,23,24
What the heck....!!!
Hope that this year's result will be better
Hope that I can able to finish all my revision on time
Hope that I am physically and mentaly prepared before the papers
Hope that....
bla bla bla bla.....
Jia you!!

NTU CAC Choir Concert

Opps. sorry. It has been thousand or years that I did not update my blog, but at least, better than Anthony, haha. A bit of updates before I talk about the concert. I am quite busy recently due to assignments and examinations. Starting to be a tutor for a primary 5 student, not a bad experience while teaching her, just that she is a bit lazy some times. A bit moody due to some personal problems. I just can not figure out why all this problems will come to me during exam period. It's really hard to get through all this mess. But, yea...hope that I can over come it.

Alright, the title of this post is NTU CAC Choir Concert, so I shouldn't type too much of my personal stuffs. =P NTU CAC Concert was held on the last day of February, which is 29 of Feb 2008, It was a friday during the recess week. So, I stayed in NTU for the whole recess week for practises, rehearsals, shopping and slacking. On that day itself, we had 2 rehearsals before that. The feling was excited, tired and a bit stress because I was the leading character for the 2nd half.

We changed and got ready before 7pm so that we can have some warm up before the concert start at 8pm. Around 7:30pm, the audiences started come in to the Victoria Concert Hall. At that moment, I was a bit "gan jiong" because this is the 1st time that I sing and perform on such a grand stage, I afraid that I will screw up every thing with my always-not-in-tune voice.

After some opening speech by our Mr Emcee, James, we started our 1st song, Passigin followed by Katakataka, both are Philipines folk songs. Next up is Yamko Rambe and O Inani Keke, both are our favourite songs. Our soloist for some part of the song are Adhi and Anthony,tada!!!! We performed the song quite well I would say. Of course what, our favourite song,haha. Our guest choir, CHIJ Lady Queen of Peace performed after our Indonesian folk song. They are about 5 years old to 12 years old, they are really cute. Of course, they sang quite well, but....mm...I think we are better,haha..

After their performance, is our turn again. But this time we are going to sing the 2 japanese songs that we hate the most. Because it required a lot of skill to "sketch" our the meaning or the song. The 1st Japanese song was Akita Obako, quite nice, but yea...need lots of skills, that's why it was quite tiring. Next is Akita Ondo. This song is...AH!!!!!! We hate it the most. There are a lot of part that started with off beat and, we have to rap most of the parts. Memorising the whole song already killing me, still have to memorise which part of the song we have to come in, in the middle have to rest for how many beats, be careful on those weird "ugly-if-stand-alone-but-nice-as-a-chord". But, we still can able to over come it, although it ended a bit weird, haha...After the Jap songs, is the spiritual songs. Didn;t My Lord Deliver Daniel, Go Down Moses and I've Been In The Storm So Long. This 3 songs was ok, but I still like Go Down Moses the most.

After the 1st half, we only have aroudn 20 minutes to chang to out 2nd half costume. We have to dress a bit like retro or in 1970s. At this momoent, every 1 was rushing here and there, wearing their 2nd half costum, change their hair style, spraying golden dust on each other...yea...it was really a nice experience. After that, we were on stage once again, I was very very
gan jiong" at this time, because I am the leading chracter, need to sing, act and dance! Some more they want to make it cheesy and exciting, I was afraid that I couldn't do it. The 1st song for second half was We Go Together from Grease, follwed by Seasons of Love from Rent, Ain't No Mountain High Enough that was written by Nickolas Ashford and Valerie Simpson is 1966. Next up was Abba Medley and ended with You Cant Stop The Beat from Hairspray. I would say the 2nd half was fun and exciting, every 1 is screaming and clapping especially during our last pose. Rayne, my partner and I was quite enjoying. We are really "in love" for that night. Haha,,,It was really a nice experience after all.

The concert ended at around 9:40pm. All of our friends include my god father came to the stage and congratulate us. Guess what, i received a cactus and a flower from my friends. Every 1 was talking, laughing and taking picture at this time. Thanks to our Mr Photographer, Jordan for taking pictures for us and the pictures are nice due to his skills and the quality of the camera. It was really a tiring and exciting night. But, it was a bit disappointed as well, I mean for me... I always hope for this "some 1" can be able to make it and come for my 1st concert in my NTU life. Althought I knew that this "some 1" couldn't make it much earlier, but it was still a bit dissapointed for me that night. No doubt, I was not that important and worth sacrificing after all. I thought I had over come it and can handle it quite well, but I still couldn;t do it.

Well, luckily I still have my friends who always be with me... Thanks for all my my friends who came to support me, we try to have a better concert next year. =)







=Happy Holiday=

Last holiday was kinda busy. Not only need to prepare for MSA event, but also need to go around Singapore for caroling. But, I still got myself some times to enjoy myself. Other than staying at home, I went Alor Setar, P. Penang and Malacca. Papa, sorry lo, I know I din stay much time at home during holiday, but then holiday sure need to enjoy de mer,haha.

I went to Alor Setar on 28th of December morning. It was a long journey, luckily still got Hong Kiat let me kacau, haha. Hong Kiat's family are nice, especially his brother, very very kawaii!! Actually that night was quite sad. Because that day is the day that our result release. This time result not good, that stupid 2 Econometrics caused my CGPA pull down like crazy,haih...

We went many places in Alor Setar, but all forgot the name d,haha.. Of course, we ate a lot of nice food as well...yum yum yum. The next day we went to P. Penang. The weather is very hot, but then still ok, cause got to eat lots of nice food,haha. Met Billy and Weng Kit there, of course, they ate a lot too, haha. Thanks to HK lo, for fetching me here and there. HK, yopu still the best!!! haha.... =p

The wan tan mee look very nice right?


What do you think we are doing?


Nice food in Penang, but all finished,haha...

So happy, at last can see paddi that I wanted to see for so long...

Like this picture very much!!


Hong Kiat's bro cute right?

I went to Malacca from Alor Setar on 29th night. The journey was terrible. The stupid bus is freaking cold, whole night couldn;t sleep. It also cause both of my shoulder ache until no mood to walk here and there in Malacca the next day. Thanks to Ching Seng as well for ging me a nice place to stay and bringing Ping Wan, Vway Hau and me to walk and eat around. And of course...thanks to Adrian too!! We ate Chicken rice ball, sate celup, dim sum and many many more!!! yummy!!!

Nyonya food in Malacca!


Yum Yum Yum....


Famous sate celup in Malacca

These are all the places I went last holiday. Haha,hope to explore Malaysia more in future... =)

^MeRry ChRistMas^

It's Christmas Day again. This year's Christmas is busy and lonely. I am still single, available and lonely after all this while....same as the Christmas last year. But the difference this, this year's Christmas had added some hatred and disppointment. Why cant poeple just do what they had promised? Why people will keep their promise from some small little thing?


Experience and lesson taught me that, do not anyhow put high expectation on a person unless you really know that person well. Some times I really do not understand how come a person can forget what they suppose to do or choose not to do some thing that is important because of some thing that is not important? It's ridiculous!!! It's our responsibility to do what he had promised. How are people going to believe us or give us important task if we are irresponsible?

This year's Christmas is busy as well. We went for many places to carol such as Yatch Club, Park Hotel, Bugis Junction, Sentosa.... It's fun! I knew lots of friend through choir camp and caroling session. It's very obvious that every 1's relationship had became better and better. And it's fun to "anyhow sing" while we are walking to MRT station after caroling session.

Although it's quite tiring, shoulder and leg quite pain, but i still enjoy it. I enjoy when see people smiling and sing along with us. Haha,quite pity Feng Xia and Chin Yuan when teaching us cause we are always out of tune. I will never forgot how Chin Yuan looks when we are out of tune. Thanks for Alicia's help as well,haha... Here ar some pictures during caroling session....

While caroling in Bugis Junction

After caroling in Bugis. ^Cheeze....^

In Carefour,Suntec

We are so "pro" right?

We wish you a Merry Christmas,we wish you a Merry Christmas......

Something interesting!!!

无聊,真得无聊!
从来没有见过这样的情侣。
半夜夜谈无所谓,
可是需要“糖沾豆”到带着耳机睡吗?
原因是可以听对方snoring 的声音?
Ridiculous!!!

爱情真的是那么的特别?
还是。。。erm。。。无聊?
我也不晓得。
或许有一天,
我会亲身体验吧!
晚安/早安咯!!

空虚

问世间情为何物,直教人生死相许?

近来时常听到这一句话。这一句话在港剧《神雕侠侣》中时常听见。杨过身世坎坷,可是我觉得最可怜的,莫过于是李莫愁。虽然李莫愁杀人无数,可是这也是因为受过的创伤而导致如此的局面。

有时候会有些羡慕李莫愁,至少还可以把自己的悲哀,憎恨,嫉妒而发泄出来。心中的空虚,哀愁以及愤怒,会有人明白吗?近来做许多事情都不能专心。心中还是一直想着一些事情,一些曾听过,也令我感到懊恼的话。为什么我会把这些东西看得那么重呢?难道我真的到了不能自拔的地步吗?

鼎晟啊鼎晟,你几时变得那么傻?我时常都在问着这一个问题,可是就是想不出答案。我明知道[它]是不会为了我而付出的,可是为什么还是傻傻的期盼呢?不管我怎么等,结果都还是一样。别人时常说付出也是幸福的,可是为什么我一点都不感到幸福?当你受到某个限度的创伤的时候,你就会发觉,盲目的付出是愚蠢的。

在绝望中,在迷茫中,在彷徨中,在懊恼中,我发觉本来的自己已经消失了。我不知道还能从那里找到原本的自己。每当想起这些事情个时候,心中都会感到一些莫名奇妙的寒意。有时真地感到很冷,很冷。可是又有谁会让我感到温暖呢?

一路走来都不容易,还以为能熬过去,可是却发觉自己还是老样子,还没学会怎么把一切都给忘记。朋友时常都叫我不要去想,不要去理会,可是我做得到吗?我能够把[它]给忘了吗?

孤独

“近来好吗?”
“还不是老样子,和以前没什么分别。”

“还在为以前的事而烦燥吗?”
“算是吧。有时,心情还蛮低落的。真的不知如何要把心中的话说出来。有时觉得很辛苦,因为总是喜欢带着面具面对身边的每一个人。要等到几时我才能把真正的自己展现出来啊?许多人都觉得我很开朗,有稚气,喜欢笑。可是谁又会晓得我内心有多么的冷呢?”

“你是真么了?劝过你多少次?还痛不够吗?”
“你以为能那么容易忘记吗?真的像你想像中那么容易放手吗?如果真的事那么容易的话,我早就做到了,何必等到今时今日呢?我也很想把一切都抛开啊。可是每当想起[HP事件]就会令我心碎,伤心,甚至掉泪。为什么快乐的不会是我呢?我也不知为什么自己会变得那么笨,明知会被伤害,还要傻傻的闯过去。我知道痛,可是就是不甘心。”

“是你自己选的啊,为什么要怨天尤人?”
“我不懂,我不知道,不要问我!有时我真得很想埋怨上天为什么要让我承受这样的痛。这么多年了,为什么不能让我有脱离的时候?为什么不能让我享有我要的成果?想着想着,看着看着,心里真的好不舒服哦。虽然这不是第一次受伤,可是不知为什么就是习惯不了,还不能承受这种痛。”

“不要再这样折磨自己好吗?不要再让自己受伤好吗?你这样子不辛苦吗?”
“辛苦,当然辛苦。可是我又能做些什么呢?我就是不能把[它]给忘记啊,我就是做不到!”

“够了,够了!!不要再这样子好吗?你身边还有很多关心你的人,不要让他们伤心好吗?”
“不!!我就是放不了手。明知不可能,可是我就是不甘心。为什么从小到大我忠是要承受一些我不喜欢的东西,我不想要的东西?小时甚至到今天,被人嘲笑,被人看扁都已经受够了,可是为什么到今时今日还要再受这样的打击?我就是不甘心!!我就是不想放手!!”

“被人嘲笑?那是因为你自己的行为是到别人如此对你啊”
“不!!我没有的选,这就是我!我从小到大就是如此啊。如果有的选,你认为我会选折要让自己走这样的路吗?这是我想的吗?为什么是周围的人就是不能了解我?心在痛的时候谁又会理会我?”

“不要再想了,好吗?慢慢把它忘记,好吗?”
“不能!! 我就是做不到。我尝试了很久啊,我也等了很久啊,可是我就是做不到。你知道孤独的路有多难走吗?我的心就是要往哪儿去。我就是忘不了啊,我就是放不下啊。我嫉妒,我不开心,我就是不想这样就放手!!”

“算了,怎么说你都听不进的。竟然你选折了这条路,为什么还要埋怨别人?”
“我不懂,不要问我!!”

“不要再这样子了,好吗?你已经知到结果是如何,为什么还要苦苦追求下去?不可以乖乖得让自己好过点吗?不可以对自己好一点吗?你问问你自己,你哭过多少次?你痛过多少次,你烦过多少次?这还不够吗?还要这样吗?”
“。。。。。”

COuSin's WeDding

On 1st of December was my cousin's wedding. Luckily my last paper is on 28th of November, so I can attend her wedding. On 30th of November, we went her house for buffet dinner and start helping her to prepare some of the necessity that she need on the next day.

Due to the reason that most of my cousin's sister friends are in Singapore and there are not much female "not-yet-marry" relatives, so, some of the handsome guy like us also have to help my cousin to be 姐妹 on 1st of December.

On the next day, we went to cousin's house early in the morning to prepare some of the materials that we need to "play" those 兄弟. It was kinda interesting,haha... They have to push up, eat the weird food that we had prepared, and do some weird stuff before they can enter to my cousin's room. Of course, the most interesting part is bargaining the ang pau that they gave.

That night we had wedding dinner ar Concourt Hotel. The flow was smooth, every thing was fine, the food are nice and of course the bride was pretty. I felt happy that my cousin was smiling happily whole night. Best wishes to both of you lo. =)

secocok right?

My Parents

The "Brotherhood"

My cousin and me =)

^YuhoO^

Finally, exam overed....

Last month was a stressful month due to the final exam, ECA stuffs and some personal problems. Some of my friends said that I am acting weird in the exam period. Ya, I admit it. Some times, I don feel like seeing and one or talking to anyone. Haha...who does'nt actign weird during exam, I think the "whole world" are acting weird that moment.

The "war" is overed. What about the result? I am kinda worry about my exam result this time. I had no confidence in most of my paper. Hopefully the result will not disappoint me. =)

Went back home for 4 days right after exam,yippee.... miss my family so much, of course, miss KL's food as well. Although went back home not long, but wtill enjoy it alot. Now I am back to Singapore again for choir camp and caroling... Hope that I can go back home again lo...

=Stress=

Life is kinda stressful recently due to the final examinations are driving near. Every day is still the same. Slack and watch movie for the whole afternoon and start studying from evening till late at night. There are a lot of stuffs and equations to remember.

Econometrics is really killing me. I hate of maths, hate of equations, hate of statistics. But still cant help it, no matter what, I still need to work hard to get better result. Realising that there are still a lot of stuffs that we learned in econometrics that I did not understand. I don not espect much from it, just hope that I can pass this subject. At leaast, PASS.

International trade is kinda confusing. I am rivising chapter 3. There are lots of stuffs and equations turning around here and there, it really make my brain turning round and round at the same time as well. Notes are long, and of course, boring.

Money and Banking are another tough subject as well. Starting of the semester, it is still OK. But starting from the middle of the semester, it became more and more tough. Couldn;t understand it well due to the messy notes and a "not so presentable" lecturer.

Of course, my "personal life" still as messy as usual. Some times, I really feel like crying and thorw out all the things that is struggling me deep in my heart. But, just not understand why I couldn's do so. Are there still many things that I am worry about? Or, I just wan to act strong?

I miss the life before the semester start. I miss the holiday. Miss the day that I spend with my buddies, miss the FOC, and of course miss the "jalan jalan cari makan" session. Life was just nice at that moment. But, we stil need to move on and face what is ahead of us right? Hopefully I can pass all of my subjects this semester. Thanks to papa and mama who are always caring enough. Miss you guys a lot. Cant wait to see you guys...

Dreamz

There is a "dream" that always playing and playing in my mind...

Keep repeating and repeating...

That is the "dream " that I always hope it will come true...


I have been waiting years and years...since young until today, I am dreaming and waiting for this dream to come true.

But life is not as easy as what I think...There are many disappointment and sadness that always happen around us....



Since young, many people thought that I am cheerful and always out-going. But, do they know what I think and how I feel deep inside my heart??

Do they know that how many disappointment and hardnesship that I had gone through?



How long shall I wait some more to see the sunshine that I always dreaming of?

Will my dream come true?








无奈

站得太久了站得腿也麻了,
哭得太久了哭得眼睛肿了,
我不知道为什么一切会变成这样,
连晴朗的天空也突然的下起雨来了。

近来时常下雨,也时常挎着大风,我的心情也像风雨一样,起落不定。有时大雨,有是小雨,有是挎风,有是乌云密布。就连我自己,都摸不清楚自己要些什么。人家眼前理智,不易受风雨摆布的我,已消失了。不,我从来就没有理智过,我只是带着面具来面对身边所有的人。我并不是人家眼中那么的坚强,其实,我内心还有很多脆弱的一面。

为什么这两年的这个时候都会发生一些大同小异而又伤得我最痛的事情?我不想再去支撑下去,也不想苦苦的等待。可是每当我有这个想法的时候,心中却有一些莫名其妙的不甘。我不甘心就这样放手,我不甘心就这样把之前的耕耘铲除掉。

有时心中有很多矛盾。同样的路已走了很多遍,看过了同样的风景,领悟过同样的孤单,经历过同样的结果,为什么我还是要一而再,再而三的走同样的路?这些问题我也问过自己好多遍。答案也多的是。可是内心却坚决要走下去,内心也一直盼望着不同的结果。

感谢好友的慰问以及鼓励。可是很想告诉你们,你们是不会明白我有多么的无奈的。虽然时常和TRIPLET说心事,可是很多时候会发现,他们也不是那么了解我。

我到底能够做些什么呢?希望我能什么都不想,安心应付考试,可是,我能做到吗?

Is That True?

Am I a Nerd?

You Are 20% Nerdy

You are definitely not nerdy - in fact, you probably don't know any nerds.
You probably care a little too much about your image. No one will know if you secretly watch Star Trek reruns!


Am I a perfectionist?

You Are 68% Perfectionist

You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others.
While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!


What Mythological creature am I?

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.


How Scary Am I?

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?


I saw this interesting site from 1 of my friend's blog. Try this out,it's fun.

身不由己

为什么还要这样呢?为什么还要这么残忍?你还疼不够吗?你要让自己受伤到几时?


近来,心情都一直不太好。不是烦考试,就是烦其他东西。有时会很恨自己,为什么选上了自己会后悔的路?明知不可能,为什么还要苦苦闯过去?


老早之前,就知道自己的命运和别人不一样,可是,却不听劝告,如今搞得自己不知如何是好。前进也不是,退后又不甘,已经到了左右为难的地步。


鼎晟,受伤过三次还不够吗?不疼吗?你要到几时才能好好学会保护自己?


不,我不是不会保护自己,而是,我选择错下去。我不甘心就这样放手。虽然已经不相信有“它”的存在,可是不知为什么,还在傻傻地等着。曾几何时,我爱上了幻想。总觉得幻想让我至少还有少许的归属感,安全感。虽然知道这一切是假的,是虚幻的。可是,这至少让我有些满足感以及短暂的快乐。


有时觉得很冷,很孤单。再也不想从前,有知心好友无时无刻的在我身边。我觉得自己已不再像以前无忧无虑的自己了。现在总觉得自己时常都在背负着许多东西。疲累,没有人会知道。有压力,没有人会理会。 有心事,没有人能够去诉说。不知还要等多久,我才能浩浩荡荡,萧萧洒洒的做回自己呢?


考试来临了,我能够收拾这一切,安心准备考试吗?