可惜不是你　陪我到最後　曾一起走　卻走失那路口  感謝那是你　牽過我的手  還能感受那溫柔

担心，苦恼以及失望的事终于发生了。

想着想着，还不是因为自己笨？

曾告诉过自己，不要再有那样的悲痛，

可是，还是一步一步的迈向无底洞

还记得我和你的点点滴滴，一些我们曾经走过的日子

可是，一直到你有了自己的将来，自己的希望，自己的天地

该憎恨你，还是祝福你，我不知道

我很迷茫，我也恨自己，我也想要逃避

看着你对另一半充满信心和甜蜜时，在一旁的我不知如何是好，充满悲痛，可却要装着诺无其事

恨你，恨你在我生命中留下那么大的痕迹

恨你，恨你再让我陷入这种悲痛

恨你，恨你把我所付出的一切给磨灭

你从来不曾理会我，珍惜我昨过的一切

有些不服，因为你觉得他比任何人重要

为什么？为什么？

你要我如何面对你？

你要我如何在你和他面前伴得开开心心祝福你？

You are only a whisper a way
But I can't feel your heart
Standing alone and waiting here
In a dark and freezing night

Walking at the darkest path
Hoping you to appear
Hoping you to make all things warm
But it just never happen

I'm alone, holding dreams that never come true
A thousand dreams that I still believe
Hoping you to give all of them to me

I've been waiting for you
to tell me what is love
I don't know how to be love
And to make you stay here
Missing every single moment
That we have shared together
Why dreams will never come true
Hoping you for an answer

It's freezing.
The kind of feeling where no one bother you,
No one care for you,
And every one is away from you.
People only find you when they are in need,
When you can help them,
When they have a favor in you.
When you are no longer useful,
They will just ignore you,
abandon you.
Who know whether you are in pain, when you are hurt.
They don't really care.
Why should I still do so much,
So much until letting so many things to hurt myself?
I shall be selfish,
I need to protect myself,
I need to love myself....

Fairy tales will never happen

Things are changing, every one is also changing, except me, I am still stepping on the same ground.

Every one already proceed to chase for something they want, but I am still staying here and waiting for things to happen. Looking at the past, I realised that I am doing the same thing over and over again without caring whether it is worth waiting or not.

I do not blame GOD for that, indeed, I thank HIM for fulfilling all the other things that I need in life. Going through all these, I thought I will use to it, and no longer have any feeling on it. However, I realised that the pain is still in me, deep inside my heart.

I am trying to be faithful, yet some times, the same question will still pop out from my mind. "Since that YOU know everything that happened in the world, why do you still want me to suffer in this way?" I know I shouldn't question HIM this way, because I was the one who chose this path.

I was some one who are faithful, some one who love HIM no matter what happens. However, I realise that my relationship with HIM have became far apart these years. I can no longer find back the feeling I used to have. Questions and quesntions a;ways pop up from my mind. Pain, disappointment and hatred stand in between HIM and me.

Not only that, indeed pain, disappointment and hatred also brought me apart from my friends. I used to be some one who are bubly, friendly and will definitely wave to some one when I saw that person even I am not close to that person. But lately, I chose to avoid. Although some times I saw some one who I know or I work with, when I saw that person coming from far, I chose to avoid that person by walking another or seeing other things and act that I never saw that person. Why things can change so much and so fast? Am I real to myself? Which 1 is my real character?

I am no longer what I used to be, I have been hiding and acting....hiding and acting....

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。
他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”
和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水

溢出来。
苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”