Busy busy busy...

I am quite busy recently due to the intensive choir training, working in library and giving tuition to a primary 5 naughty girl. But then, I still give myself some times to relax through COOKING!! Last Saturday was my "cooking day". I cooked sambal chicken and omelete for lunch, chicken with potatoes for dinner and "old cucmber" soup. =) Chicken with potatoes-I added some wine also lo....yum yum!!

Nice "old cucumber" soup

Yeap, I enjoyed myself through the process of cooking on that day. It is interesting that when you discover some new recipe when you any how add in some of the ingredient ( of course, the ingredient must :match" each other la).


Last Sunday, I went Katong to meet up with my god father and then proceed to SJI International. SJI International was having Asssisi Hospice Fun Day. The purpose of the event is to raise fund for the kids who have cancer. My job is to help him take care of the booth, and cleaning up at the end of the day. That day was so freaking hot, and...I still have to do so many stuffs,AH!!!!! Sien.... But then no choice, I still have to help him, sigh!

Recently, our instructor has chose a new song for the choir competition in Czech Republic. This is the link: http://yushantv.blogspot.com/search/label/%E5%8F%B0%E7%81%A3%E7%8E%89%E5%B1%B1%E9%9F%B3%E6%A8%82%E5%8F%B0 Just go to
台湾韵味薪团唱 and then click on [+]请点选此处,继续阅读(read more)全文. and then click [丢丢铜仔]. That is our new song for this competition. It's quite interesting, hope that you enjoy it too.

So. now is the time for us to memorise the whole song. Luckily it is still much more "doable" than the Akita Ondo that we sang before during choir concert. Hopefully we can prepare every thing on time before the competition and win something in that competition.

Looking forward to my Hong Kong and Europe trip as well. =)


进来的日子还过得不错。忙不算忙,空闲也不算太过的空闲。放假当儿,还得去教补习,拜访姑姑,也还得为合唱团的比赛做些筹备。

我像现在最忙的就是我们的Queen了。因为她是我们的主席。还有很多事情还瞪着她去忙呢!不过,我还蛮佩服她的能力。当然啦,她是我口中时常说的“才女”嘞,当然利害咯。

希望我们能顺顺利利的到捷克去比赛咯。不然我们一直以来的努力就可要白费了。NTU CAC Choir,加油咯!

Short Break

I went back home after all my papers. Miss me family so much!!! cause I din got to go back home during recess week due to choir concert. So happy....ate lots of nice food ans went shopping here and there.

Now, I am in Singapore again. Need to prepare for choir competition in Czech Republic.... Haha....NTU Choir...let's jia you together lo.

I'm FREE!!

Yuhoo....Finally....finally...I'm free!! No more exam, no more lecture notes, no more memorising formula, no more tutorials,at least for 3 months from now.

Today's paper was a disaster. It was so hard. Honestly, I really don have confident in this paper. Expecting another disaster in mid of June when the result is coming out,Ah!!!

Any way, just don bother about it first. What I wan now is, enjoy enjoy and enjoy!!

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24/04 - + + + + + + + + + +(all gone!!)

1 more, 1 more to your 3 months holiday. Hang on!!! Hang on!!! 1 more.... Still got 5 and half hour, you will be FREE~~~~

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Fall Sick

Argh!!! Yesterday was really a disaster for me. Many essays and notes need to read for THE CHINESE ECONOMY paper, and guess what? I fall sick. Sore throat, flu, headache, bla bla bla... I whole night couldn't sleep but luckily I felt much much better this morning before the paper.

Thanks Eugene for his word of encouragement and SMS. This was what he sent me:

Psalm 145: 17-18
The LORD is righteous in all his way
and loving toward all he has made.
The LORD is near to all who call on him,
to all who call him in truth.

I am a bit upset for the paper just now. Hard and not enough time,sigh! Never mind, my dad is coming to NTU and visit me later, cheer up!!

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3 more to go!!

Yesterday's paper was....er....OK i guess? Cause I SU-ed that paper, so din really bother about it. While studying, also quite relax.

Early in the morning (3am I think), was raining and we were stucked in School of Biolological Sciences. So, the "breakfast gang" went crazy again and decided to study until this morning 7am. And guess what, we really did study until 7am and go for breakfast after that.

Now is 2:30pm, and i just woke up,haha. Gonna study again.... sien!

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Jap Paper

OMG!!!! This paper is harder than expected! A lot of tricky question and tricky sentences to answer. The essay is even worst. The title is, "My Future". My brain was super exhausted. Ah!!!! Any way....overall still OK la ya...still need to study for tomorrow's paper,sien!

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今日の しけん

きょうは International Monetaryのしけんが あります。ゆうべ International Monetary の ノートを 勉強をして、おぼえました。

今朝 6:45AMに おきました。それから はを みがいて、シャワーをあびて、朝ご飯をたべました。それから 勉強する前に、Chicken Essenceをのみました。

8じに 学校へ 行きました。しけんの ところの そばに 友達と いっしおうに ノートを 覚えましょう。それから しけんお ところに 入って、しけんの ししつもんを 先生に もらって いました。

今日の しけんを あまり簡単ではありません。少し難しかったですね。しつもんいちは すこし簡単ですが、しつもんにと さんと よんもむずかしかったです!! あまりわかりませんよ!! ざんねんですね。

しけんが おわってから 友達と ひるごはんを 食べて、りょうへ 帰りました。今 疲れました、寝たいです。あしたは 日本語の しけんが ありますから、あとで 日本語を 勉強します。

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23/04 - Business Finance
24/04 - Financial Economics

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4 more days to disaster...

4 more days to exam, but still not finish revising. Not every thing are fully understand. But surprisingly, this semester are not as stress as last semester. Probably it's because of I'm not taking any maths paper this sem? Or I just became more carefree?

Recently are super excited.... But not for exam, it's because of the Europe trip,haha. We discussed bout the trip quite often this week because need to confirm some details to Eugene by this week. Once I start searching through the net, I cant stop myself any more. Because I am just...SUPER EXCITED. Stop it, stop it!!! "Teng Seng, come on, you have 6 paper this sem, study!!!" This is what I always TRY TO tell myself. But, is this helps? Sonno....hehe...

15/04 - International Monetary
16/04 - Japanese Language
17/04 - E-business Management
22/04 - The Chinese Economy
23/04 - Business Finance
24/04 - Financial Economics

Jia you lo....every 1 who having exam this period, chiong ah!!!!!!!

EXAM EXAm EXam Exam exam...

Exam is driving me crazy!!
Have to study day and night
night and day...
I guess this is what I need to pay back,
After slacking throughout the semester.
Coffee, chicken essence, spirulina, energy bar
Is the thing that I consume the most during exam.
Have to wait for another 24 days to get rid of all this
yea....is quite early compared to others
but don be too happy
My papers are on 15,16,17
and 22,23,24
What the heck....!!!
Hope that this year's result will be better
Hope that I can able to finish all my revision on time
Hope that I am physically and mentaly prepared before the papers
Hope that....
bla bla bla bla.....
Jia you!!

NTU CAC Choir Concert

Opps. sorry. It has been thousand or years that I did not update my blog, but at least, better than Anthony, haha. A bit of updates before I talk about the concert. I am quite busy recently due to assignments and examinations. Starting to be a tutor for a primary 5 student, not a bad experience while teaching her, just that she is a bit lazy some times. A bit moody due to some personal problems. I just can not figure out why all this problems will come to me during exam period. It's really hard to get through all this mess. But, yea...hope that I can over come it.

Alright, the title of this post is NTU CAC Choir Concert, so I shouldn't type too much of my personal stuffs. =P NTU CAC Concert was held on the last day of February, which is 29 of Feb 2008, It was a friday during the recess week. So, I stayed in NTU for the whole recess week for practises, rehearsals, shopping and slacking. On that day itself, we had 2 rehearsals before that. The feling was excited, tired and a bit stress because I was the leading character for the 2nd half.

We changed and got ready before 7pm so that we can have some warm up before the concert start at 8pm. Around 7:30pm, the audiences started come in to the Victoria Concert Hall. At that moment, I was a bit "gan jiong" because this is the 1st time that I sing and perform on such a grand stage, I afraid that I will screw up every thing with my always-not-in-tune voice.

After some opening speech by our Mr Emcee, James, we started our 1st song, Passigin followed by Katakataka, both are Philipines folk songs. Next up is Yamko Rambe and O Inani Keke, both are our favourite songs. Our soloist for some part of the song are Adhi and Anthony,tada!!!! We performed the song quite well I would say. Of course what, our favourite song,haha. Our guest choir, CHIJ Lady Queen of Peace performed after our Indonesian folk song. They are about 5 years old to 12 years old, they are really cute. Of course, they sang quite well, but....mm...I think we are better,haha..

After their performance, is our turn again. But this time we are going to sing the 2 japanese songs that we hate the most. Because it required a lot of skill to "sketch" our the meaning or the song. The 1st Japanese song was Akita Obako, quite nice, but yea...need lots of skills, that's why it was quite tiring. Next is Akita Ondo. This song is...AH!!!!!! We hate it the most. There are a lot of part that started with off beat and, we have to rap most of the parts. Memorising the whole song already killing me, still have to memorise which part of the song we have to come in, in the middle have to rest for how many beats, be careful on those weird "ugly-if-stand-alone-but-nice-as-a-chord". But, we still can able to over come it, although it ended a bit weird, haha...After the Jap songs, is the spiritual songs. Didn;t My Lord Deliver Daniel, Go Down Moses and I've Been In The Storm So Long. This 3 songs was ok, but I still like Go Down Moses the most.

After the 1st half, we only have aroudn 20 minutes to chang to out 2nd half costume. We have to dress a bit like retro or in 1970s. At this momoent, every 1 was rushing here and there, wearing their 2nd half costum, change their hair style, spraying golden dust on each other...yea...it was really a nice experience. After that, we were on stage once again, I was very very
gan jiong" at this time, because I am the leading chracter, need to sing, act and dance! Some more they want to make it cheesy and exciting, I was afraid that I couldn't do it. The 1st song for second half was We Go Together from Grease, follwed by Seasons of Love from Rent, Ain't No Mountain High Enough that was written by Nickolas Ashford and Valerie Simpson is 1966. Next up was Abba Medley and ended with You Cant Stop The Beat from Hairspray. I would say the 2nd half was fun and exciting, every 1 is screaming and clapping especially during our last pose. Rayne, my partner and I was quite enjoying. We are really "in love" for that night. Haha,,,It was really a nice experience after all.

The concert ended at around 9:40pm. All of our friends include my god father came to the stage and congratulate us. Guess what, i received a cactus and a flower from my friends. Every 1 was talking, laughing and taking picture at this time. Thanks to our Mr Photographer, Jordan for taking pictures for us and the pictures are nice due to his skills and the quality of the camera. It was really a tiring and exciting night. But, it was a bit disappointed as well, I mean for me... I always hope for this "some 1" can be able to make it and come for my 1st concert in my NTU life. Althought I knew that this "some 1" couldn't make it much earlier, but it was still a bit dissapointed for me that night. No doubt, I was not that important and worth sacrificing after all. I thought I had over come it and can handle it quite well, but I still couldn;t do it.

Well, luckily I still have my friends who always be with me... Thanks for all my my friends who came to support me, we try to have a better concert next year. =)







=Happy Holiday=

Last holiday was kinda busy. Not only need to prepare for MSA event, but also need to go around Singapore for caroling. But, I still got myself some times to enjoy myself. Other than staying at home, I went Alor Setar, P. Penang and Malacca. Papa, sorry lo, I know I din stay much time at home during holiday, but then holiday sure need to enjoy de mer,haha.

I went to Alor Setar on 28th of December morning. It was a long journey, luckily still got Hong Kiat let me kacau, haha. Hong Kiat's family are nice, especially his brother, very very kawaii!! Actually that night was quite sad. Because that day is the day that our result release. This time result not good, that stupid 2 Econometrics caused my CGPA pull down like crazy,haih...

We went many places in Alor Setar, but all forgot the name d,haha.. Of course, we ate a lot of nice food as well...yum yum yum. The next day we went to P. Penang. The weather is very hot, but then still ok, cause got to eat lots of nice food,haha. Met Billy and Weng Kit there, of course, they ate a lot too, haha. Thanks to HK lo, for fetching me here and there. HK, yopu still the best!!! haha.... =p

The wan tan mee look very nice right?


What do you think we are doing?


Nice food in Penang, but all finished,haha...

So happy, at last can see paddi that I wanted to see for so long...

Like this picture very much!!


Hong Kiat's bro cute right?

I went to Malacca from Alor Setar on 29th night. The journey was terrible. The stupid bus is freaking cold, whole night couldn;t sleep. It also cause both of my shoulder ache until no mood to walk here and there in Malacca the next day. Thanks to Ching Seng as well for ging me a nice place to stay and bringing Ping Wan, Vway Hau and me to walk and eat around. And of course...thanks to Adrian too!! We ate Chicken rice ball, sate celup, dim sum and many many more!!! yummy!!!

Nyonya food in Malacca!


Yum Yum Yum....


Famous sate celup in Malacca

These are all the places I went last holiday. Haha,hope to explore Malaysia more in future... =)

^MeRry ChRistMas^

It's Christmas Day again. This year's Christmas is busy and lonely. I am still single, available and lonely after all this while....same as the Christmas last year. But the difference this, this year's Christmas had added some hatred and disppointment. Why cant poeple just do what they had promised? Why people will keep their promise from some small little thing?


Experience and lesson taught me that, do not anyhow put high expectation on a person unless you really know that person well. Some times I really do not understand how come a person can forget what they suppose to do or choose not to do some thing that is important because of some thing that is not important? It's ridiculous!!! It's our responsibility to do what he had promised. How are people going to believe us or give us important task if we are irresponsible?

This year's Christmas is busy as well. We went for many places to carol such as Yatch Club, Park Hotel, Bugis Junction, Sentosa.... It's fun! I knew lots of friend through choir camp and caroling session. It's very obvious that every 1's relationship had became better and better. And it's fun to "anyhow sing" while we are walking to MRT station after caroling session.

Although it's quite tiring, shoulder and leg quite pain, but i still enjoy it. I enjoy when see people smiling and sing along with us. Haha,quite pity Feng Xia and Chin Yuan when teaching us cause we are always out of tune. I will never forgot how Chin Yuan looks when we are out of tune. Thanks for Alicia's help as well,haha... Here ar some pictures during caroling session....

While caroling in Bugis Junction

After caroling in Bugis. ^Cheeze....^

In Carefour,Suntec

We are so "pro" right?

We wish you a Merry Christmas,we wish you a Merry Christmas......

Something interesting!!!

无聊,真得无聊!
从来没有见过这样的情侣。
半夜夜谈无所谓,
可是需要“糖沾豆”到带着耳机睡吗?
原因是可以听对方snoring 的声音?
Ridiculous!!!

爱情真的是那么的特别?
还是。。。erm。。。无聊?
我也不晓得。
或许有一天,
我会亲身体验吧!
晚安/早安咯!!

空虚

问世间情为何物,直教人生死相许?

近来时常听到这一句话。这一句话在港剧《神雕侠侣》中时常听见。杨过身世坎坷,可是我觉得最可怜的,莫过于是李莫愁。虽然李莫愁杀人无数,可是这也是因为受过的创伤而导致如此的局面。

有时候会有些羡慕李莫愁,至少还可以把自己的悲哀,憎恨,嫉妒而发泄出来。心中的空虚,哀愁以及愤怒,会有人明白吗?近来做许多事情都不能专心。心中还是一直想着一些事情,一些曾听过,也令我感到懊恼的话。为什么我会把这些东西看得那么重呢?难道我真的到了不能自拔的地步吗?

鼎晟啊鼎晟,你几时变得那么傻?我时常都在问着这一个问题,可是就是想不出答案。我明知道[它]是不会为了我而付出的,可是为什么还是傻傻的期盼呢?不管我怎么等,结果都还是一样。别人时常说付出也是幸福的,可是为什么我一点都不感到幸福?当你受到某个限度的创伤的时候,你就会发觉,盲目的付出是愚蠢的。

在绝望中,在迷茫中,在彷徨中,在懊恼中,我发觉本来的自己已经消失了。我不知道还能从那里找到原本的自己。每当想起这些事情个时候,心中都会感到一些莫名奇妙的寒意。有时真地感到很冷,很冷。可是又有谁会让我感到温暖呢?

一路走来都不容易,还以为能熬过去,可是却发觉自己还是老样子,还没学会怎么把一切都给忘记。朋友时常都叫我不要去想,不要去理会,可是我做得到吗?我能够把[它]给忘了吗?

孤独

“近来好吗?”
“还不是老样子,和以前没什么分别。”

“还在为以前的事而烦燥吗?”
“算是吧。有时,心情还蛮低落的。真的不知如何要把心中的话说出来。有时觉得很辛苦,因为总是喜欢带着面具面对身边的每一个人。要等到几时我才能把真正的自己展现出来啊?许多人都觉得我很开朗,有稚气,喜欢笑。可是谁又会晓得我内心有多么的冷呢?”

“你是真么了?劝过你多少次?还痛不够吗?”
“你以为能那么容易忘记吗?真的像你想像中那么容易放手吗?如果真的事那么容易的话,我早就做到了,何必等到今时今日呢?我也很想把一切都抛开啊。可是每当想起[HP事件]就会令我心碎,伤心,甚至掉泪。为什么快乐的不会是我呢?我也不知为什么自己会变得那么笨,明知会被伤害,还要傻傻的闯过去。我知道痛,可是就是不甘心。”

“是你自己选的啊,为什么要怨天尤人?”
“我不懂,我不知道,不要问我!有时我真得很想埋怨上天为什么要让我承受这样的痛。这么多年了,为什么不能让我有脱离的时候?为什么不能让我享有我要的成果?想着想着,看着看着,心里真的好不舒服哦。虽然这不是第一次受伤,可是不知为什么就是习惯不了,还不能承受这种痛。”

“不要再这样折磨自己好吗?不要再让自己受伤好吗?你这样子不辛苦吗?”
“辛苦,当然辛苦。可是我又能做些什么呢?我就是不能把[它]给忘记啊,我就是做不到!”

“够了,够了!!不要再这样子好吗?你身边还有很多关心你的人,不要让他们伤心好吗?”
“不!!我就是放不了手。明知不可能,可是我就是不甘心。为什么从小到大我忠是要承受一些我不喜欢的东西,我不想要的东西?小时甚至到今天,被人嘲笑,被人看扁都已经受够了,可是为什么到今时今日还要再受这样的打击?我就是不甘心!!我就是不想放手!!”

“被人嘲笑?那是因为你自己的行为是到别人如此对你啊”
“不!!我没有的选,这就是我!我从小到大就是如此啊。如果有的选,你认为我会选折要让自己走这样的路吗?这是我想的吗?为什么是周围的人就是不能了解我?心在痛的时候谁又会理会我?”

“不要再想了,好吗?慢慢把它忘记,好吗?”
“不能!! 我就是做不到。我尝试了很久啊,我也等了很久啊,可是我就是做不到。你知道孤独的路有多难走吗?我的心就是要往哪儿去。我就是忘不了啊,我就是放不下啊。我嫉妒,我不开心,我就是不想这样就放手!!”

“算了,怎么说你都听不进的。竟然你选折了这条路,为什么还要埋怨别人?”
“我不懂,不要问我!!”

“不要再这样子了,好吗?你已经知到结果是如何,为什么还要苦苦追求下去?不可以乖乖得让自己好过点吗?不可以对自己好一点吗?你问问你自己,你哭过多少次?你痛过多少次,你烦过多少次?这还不够吗?还要这样吗?”
“。。。。。”

COuSin's WeDding

On 1st of December was my cousin's wedding. Luckily my last paper is on 28th of November, so I can attend her wedding. On 30th of November, we went her house for buffet dinner and start helping her to prepare some of the necessity that she need on the next day.

Due to the reason that most of my cousin's sister friends are in Singapore and there are not much female "not-yet-marry" relatives, so, some of the handsome guy like us also have to help my cousin to be 姐妹 on 1st of December.

On the next day, we went to cousin's house early in the morning to prepare some of the materials that we need to "play" those 兄弟. It was kinda interesting,haha... They have to push up, eat the weird food that we had prepared, and do some weird stuff before they can enter to my cousin's room. Of course, the most interesting part is bargaining the ang pau that they gave.

That night we had wedding dinner ar Concourt Hotel. The flow was smooth, every thing was fine, the food are nice and of course the bride was pretty. I felt happy that my cousin was smiling happily whole night. Best wishes to both of you lo. =)

secocok right?

My Parents

The "Brotherhood"

My cousin and me =)

^YuhoO^

Finally, exam overed....

Last month was a stressful month due to the final exam, ECA stuffs and some personal problems. Some of my friends said that I am acting weird in the exam period. Ya, I admit it. Some times, I don feel like seeing and one or talking to anyone. Haha...who does'nt actign weird during exam, I think the "whole world" are acting weird that moment.

The "war" is overed. What about the result? I am kinda worry about my exam result this time. I had no confidence in most of my paper. Hopefully the result will not disappoint me. =)

Went back home for 4 days right after exam,yippee.... miss my family so much, of course, miss KL's food as well. Although went back home not long, but wtill enjoy it alot. Now I am back to Singapore again for choir camp and caroling... Hope that I can go back home again lo...

=Stress=

Life is kinda stressful recently due to the final examinations are driving near. Every day is still the same. Slack and watch movie for the whole afternoon and start studying from evening till late at night. There are a lot of stuffs and equations to remember.

Econometrics is really killing me. I hate of maths, hate of equations, hate of statistics. But still cant help it, no matter what, I still need to work hard to get better result. Realising that there are still a lot of stuffs that we learned in econometrics that I did not understand. I don not espect much from it, just hope that I can pass this subject. At leaast, PASS.

International trade is kinda confusing. I am rivising chapter 3. There are lots of stuffs and equations turning around here and there, it really make my brain turning round and round at the same time as well. Notes are long, and of course, boring.

Money and Banking are another tough subject as well. Starting of the semester, it is still OK. But starting from the middle of the semester, it became more and more tough. Couldn;t understand it well due to the messy notes and a "not so presentable" lecturer.

Of course, my "personal life" still as messy as usual. Some times, I really feel like crying and thorw out all the things that is struggling me deep in my heart. But, just not understand why I couldn's do so. Are there still many things that I am worry about? Or, I just wan to act strong?

I miss the life before the semester start. I miss the holiday. Miss the day that I spend with my buddies, miss the FOC, and of course miss the "jalan jalan cari makan" session. Life was just nice at that moment. But, we stil need to move on and face what is ahead of us right? Hopefully I can pass all of my subjects this semester. Thanks to papa and mama who are always caring enough. Miss you guys a lot. Cant wait to see you guys...

Dreamz

There is a "dream" that always playing and playing in my mind...

Keep repeating and repeating...

That is the "dream " that I always hope it will come true...


I have been waiting years and years...since young until today, I am dreaming and waiting for this dream to come true.

But life is not as easy as what I think...There are many disappointment and sadness that always happen around us....



Since young, many people thought that I am cheerful and always out-going. But, do they know what I think and how I feel deep inside my heart??

Do they know that how many disappointment and hardnesship that I had gone through?



How long shall I wait some more to see the sunshine that I always dreaming of?

Will my dream come true?








无奈

站得太久了站得腿也麻了,
哭得太久了哭得眼睛肿了,
我不知道为什么一切会变成这样,
连晴朗的天空也突然的下起雨来了。

近来时常下雨,也时常挎着大风,我的心情也像风雨一样,起落不定。有时大雨,有是小雨,有是挎风,有是乌云密布。就连我自己,都摸不清楚自己要些什么。人家眼前理智,不易受风雨摆布的我,已消失了。不,我从来就没有理智过,我只是带着面具来面对身边所有的人。我并不是人家眼中那么的坚强,其实,我内心还有很多脆弱的一面。

为什么这两年的这个时候都会发生一些大同小异而又伤得我最痛的事情?我不想再去支撑下去,也不想苦苦的等待。可是每当我有这个想法的时候,心中却有一些莫名其妙的不甘。我不甘心就这样放手,我不甘心就这样把之前的耕耘铲除掉。

有时心中有很多矛盾。同样的路已走了很多遍,看过了同样的风景,领悟过同样的孤单,经历过同样的结果,为什么我还是要一而再,再而三的走同样的路?这些问题我也问过自己好多遍。答案也多的是。可是内心却坚决要走下去,内心也一直盼望着不同的结果。

感谢好友的慰问以及鼓励。可是很想告诉你们,你们是不会明白我有多么的无奈的。虽然时常和TRIPLET说心事,可是很多时候会发现,他们也不是那么了解我。

我到底能够做些什么呢?希望我能什么都不想,安心应付考试,可是,我能做到吗?

Is That True?

Am I a Nerd?

You Are 20% Nerdy

You are definitely not nerdy - in fact, you probably don't know any nerds.
You probably care a little too much about your image. No one will know if you secretly watch Star Trek reruns!


Am I a perfectionist?

You Are 68% Perfectionist

You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others.
While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!


What Mythological creature am I?

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.


How Scary Am I?

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?


I saw this interesting site from 1 of my friend's blog. Try this out,it's fun.

身不由己

为什么还要这样呢?为什么还要这么残忍?你还疼不够吗?你要让自己受伤到几时?


近来,心情都一直不太好。不是烦考试,就是烦其他东西。有时会很恨自己,为什么选上了自己会后悔的路?明知不可能,为什么还要苦苦闯过去?


老早之前,就知道自己的命运和别人不一样,可是,却不听劝告,如今搞得自己不知如何是好。前进也不是,退后又不甘,已经到了左右为难的地步。


鼎晟,受伤过三次还不够吗?不疼吗?你要到几时才能好好学会保护自己?


不,我不是不会保护自己,而是,我选择错下去。我不甘心就这样放手。虽然已经不相信有“它”的存在,可是不知为什么,还在傻傻地等着。曾几何时,我爱上了幻想。总觉得幻想让我至少还有少许的归属感,安全感。虽然知道这一切是假的,是虚幻的。可是,这至少让我有些满足感以及短暂的快乐。


有时觉得很冷,很孤单。再也不想从前,有知心好友无时无刻的在我身边。我觉得自己已不再像以前无忧无虑的自己了。现在总觉得自己时常都在背负着许多东西。疲累,没有人会知道。有压力,没有人会理会。 有心事,没有人能够去诉说。不知还要等多久,我才能浩浩荡荡,萧萧洒洒的做回自己呢?


考试来临了,我能够收拾这一切,安心准备考试吗?

Updates.....

It had been a long time that I did not update my blog.

Let's talk about my holiday. I enjoyed my holiday a lot back in Malaysia. I went Pulau Redang with my form 6 friends and I also went to Ipoh and Genting Highlands with my NTU friends. They visited me in KL and guess what, we watched Transformer in Cineleisure. That's the first time I went Cineleisure,sua gu hor...


Redang trip was quite fun althought it's a bit boring, cause I went there last year. But, I still enjoy it a lot because I got to fellowship with my form 6 buddies. There are some of the picture that I took when I was in Redang with my friends.


Ipoh trip was fun, we ate lots of nice food and went lots of nice place, thanks to our friend Siew Hong that fetch us here and there with his Unser. We went tong sui gai eat desert, ate Nga Choy Gai, Ipoh Dim Sum, nice and famous claypot chicken rice, drink Ipoh white coffee and many many more.... After Ipoh trip, my NTU friends came to KL and visit me, we went Genting as well, but kinda boring there,haha... Here are some of the picture that we took when we were in Ipoh and Genting.




Hope you guys enjoy the picture that I uploaded. Will update more about me next time...see ya...

I am updating my blog in Media Resource Library while I am working there. Can see that I am super duper free.

This few weeks, nothing much to do in the library because there are lesser people visiting library due to school holiday. Our supervisor ask us to do work slowly, as slow as we can, the slower the better. I refresh my email account, MSA forum and friendster uncountable time while I am working here. Damn slack! Although it's quite boring, but I enjoy it because I can earin money by doing not much work, hehe...

I am going back to KL this Friday, and going to visit my grandparents who are staying in Cameron Highland. Hope that they are alright. To my buddies, miss you all le, hope to see you guys as soon as possible, see ya.

Long time did not update my blog. Ya la ya la, I am lazy la...haha...

Lots of people are having their holiday now, but not for me. I am taking special semester, hardworking leh? I am taking special semester because i want to clear my credit hour earlier so that i can more relax in my final year and concentrate in my Final Year Project. Besides, I am also working in library, Singapore really offer good salary leh,haha...

I am taking a module named Experiencing Digital Animation for this special semester. Really interesting le, we got to do our own cartoon, geng leh? Don jealous ya...haha...

Life in Singapore still OK. Nothing much, just that a bit busy for studies and activities.... Hope that every thing will go accordingly. :)

Guys, I am going back to KL next week le....hope to see you guys soon, muacks....

UpDates......

First of all, would like to say "sorry" to all of my friends who view my blog always. Quite busy and lazy recently, therefore, did not update my blog for a long time. Happy Chinese New Year to you guys, hope that you all enjoy it a lot.

2 weeks before the Chinese New Year make me really exhausted. Got exams and bunch of activities and problems waiting for me to solve it. Internatonal Games and Heritage Club's event was the highlights for that 2 weeks. For International Games, I am the Welfare Director for that event. I need to handle the welfare, food, drinks and first aid for that event. Luckily, Every thing goes smoothly althought there are a lttle bit of misunderstanding between the main comms. For Heritage Clubs, I need to pass up the proposal and deal with the person inchanrge of all activities in NTU which require me to think an write a lot. But, through all these events, I gain a lot of different knowledge that benefit me.

I enjoyed my Chinese New Year alot althought I need to come back to Singapore for some make up lesson. I enjoyed the moment when hang around with family and friends. I start to learn how to appreciate and love my family and friends better. I appreciate every thing that they had given to me althought it is only a short sentence of wishing and caring. Parents will always worry everything for me such as daily expenditure, food, and money that I need in Singapore. Thanks a lot papa and mama.

All activities for this semester is over except Heritage Week. I know it's time for me to focus 100% on my studies. I pray that I can use all my times well and score better compared to last semester....

= 2007 =

2006 had pass. Now have to prepare to face another different year,2007. Last few days was not that happy,because I got my result. Not really satisfied,not really good compared to others,but I will keep up my work,even work harder to strike the best I can.

2006 pass really fast... Before August,just do nothing every day. 1st semester end really fast,and now have to prepare for second semester le. Hopefully I can really discipline in this semester and study hard but not play and watch movie every day.

Guys...lets gambate together la k? Happy New Year to every one.....

= Merry Christmas =

Merry Christmas to every one. Long time did not update my blog,haha. Just back to Singapore few days ago to celebrate Christmas here. Went back to malaysia for 18 days,really happy. Was busy when back to Malaysia. Guess what,I am not busy for studies or what,but I am busy going out with friends and travel here and there,haha.

Thanks to my parents too. Mummy purposely cook lots of my favourite food,father purposely bring me here and there,haha. Merry Chiristmas to both of you too,may GOD bless you. Brought back a lot of stuff from Malaysia to Singapore,I think my parents are just too worry about me,haha.


Some of my friend came to Singapore to celebrate Christmas. Brouht them to many places such as Sentosa,Orchard Road,Vivo City.... Ate lots of nice food too,haha. It was fun! Thanks to Orion for leading me the way also.haha. A bunch of my friend and me went to Orchard Road during Christmas eve. It was so so so crowded. Alot of people and foreign workers. Unfortunately,1 of our friend lost her handphone that day,pity pity pity.

People there was "spraying" around,quite fun,but quite messy too,haha. i think my Malaysian friend not use to all these things le. Orchard Road quite nice this year,we capture lots of picture,haha.. Every one was having fun,playing around...haha...


Haih....going to get my result very soon le. 2nd semester going to start very soon,busy life style going to start soon ler. I hope that I can pass all my papers,may GOD bless me all the time.

Tomorrow will going to JB and look around le,hope can but some cheap and nice cloth for my Chinese New Year,haha. After that,going to concentrate on my ECA programme,Gambate lo.

YeaH!!

Now is 5:52 am in the morning. Prepared to go back to KL. Yeah!! Can go back and see my family le,miss them a lot. Waited this momentt for a long time.

This few days went a lot of places,such as Vivo City ( it is really nice ), China Town,Esplanade,Bugis Junction,Esplanade.Clark Quay,ISC trip... Wah,really went a lot of places. Eat here and there also. Ate at Sakae Sushi,Subway,Super Hotdog... haha,uncountable.

Really relax after examinations. Every one was having fun together. Long time did not play like this le,took a lot of picture too. Will upload some picture after got it from Sein Chyi.

Really happy this few days le. No stress,no worries.... But then a bit worry for the examinations result. A bit stress on choosing next semester's subject too. Hopefully every thing will be fine. Saw Orion working in Subway also,but then he din see me...haha...

Will miss my friend here also le. See you guys next year in NTU lo....

~ Take A BreaK ~

Just finish 4 papers. Haih,really sad for my math when thinking back. There are a few question i do not know how to do. Really scare,hope that i can pass that paper. Math was terrible,Microeconomics was unexpected,Macroeconomics was a bit disappointed,Music Edventure in Listening was OK,now waiting to sit for my last paper,Gene R Us.

My father,sister,aunt and father's friend visited me few days ago. Really happy,they brought a lot of things for me. Mummy is not coming but she asked my father to bring me her home made biscuit,some herbal.... Really nice. I like to study far away from home because I can feel my parents' love more deeply. Daddy,mummy and sis,love you all le.

This 2 days did not study at all,went out with father and sister. Celebrated my god father's birthday last 2 days. We had dinner in Seoul Garden located in Bugis Junction. It was nice,I like it. That day ate alot,super full,haha. Happy Birthday to my god father le,thanks for every thing that you did for us.

Yesterday went out again,haha. Had dinner with my father and sister in Bugis Junction again because I want to buy a electrical keyboard in Suntec City. I was late to meet my father because yesterday was raining dogs and cats,haha. We had our dinner in Ajisen Ramen(my favourite),haha. It was nice le. After that,we went Suntec City. I bought alot of things,such as a electrical keyboard,a Voodoo pencil case and key chain,a frying pan(so that I can cook more different food in hostel) and....

After that,I accompany my father and sister to railway station. Guess what? I took a wrong bus and lost in some where. Haha,luckily an aunty who was waiting for bus tought me the way to the nearest MRT station. Thanks to Orion also. Thanks for so caring,haha. I am alright le,try not to be that blur any more... Haha...

Today gonna study le,exam on thursday. Althought i S/U that subject already,but still have to study lo. S/U means that,that subject will not affect my CGPA no matter what result I get for Gene R Us. To my buddies in Malaysia,see you guys soon lo.

=eXam SiCk=



Few days din update my blog le. Very busy recently,exam exam exam and exam. Just sat for my Microeconomics and Edventure in Listening paper this 2 days. Microeconomics was tough!! We expect there will have some culculation question,but,DON HAVE!!! There is 8 questions,and we have to do 8. No choice at all.... Siao eh.... All question also need to draw graph and write a lot of theory,some question need us to draw more than 2 graph.

This few weeks every tired. Get sleepy and tired easily. Maybe because of study day and night ba. This few weeks also always headache. Few days before this just fainted in front of my room. My GOD!!! I think is blood circulation problem,should be ok. Last time also got once,in Malaysia. Hope that every thing will be fine le....

Really don wan to suffer liao. i hope I can fast fast finish all paper and then go out and play. Haha. My father and sister are coming this Sunday le. Hope to see them,miss them so much. But mummy are not coming,so sad. Never mind,can see her during my December holiday.

Hope that my result will be ok le. Don wan to fail any of my paper.... Good luck to every one who are having exams....

Stress,stress,stress

Steph,Happy Birthday to you


Now a day really stress le. Have to study really hard for my final examinations. People around are so hardworking. Luckily,I just did my last Assignment and the portfolio that I need to pass up 12 hours after this. (Now is 2 am, midnight),keke....

6 more days,still have 6 more days,I have to sit for my first paper,Microeconomics. This is the first time i sit for university's examination paper,I cant imagine what is going to happen. Just got my Mathematics For Economics and Microeconomics' quiz result. Mm...Math improve d. I got 13 / 15,but micro still the same, 7 / 15. Ai yo yo ,why cant it just improve 1 mark? At least I will be more happy,haha....

Tomorrow is my best friend's birthday le. I would like to say Happy Birthday to her. Sorry la,this year cant celebrate with you. I will be going back on December. No worries,you can see me soon,sure miss me a lot righht? keke... I hope that she will be happy every single day.

I went to see doctor 2 days back. This 2 weeks always headache,some more very unusual 1. Only right part will pain,but left part wont. According to doctor,maybe it is migraine. She gave me some medicine. If the same thing happen,I have to see her again lo. This 2 days better d. I just scare la. I scare some thing will be happen to me. I always imagine,if there is a lump in my brain,what should i do?? Am I thinking too much? Hopefully every thing is alright.

Still got 6 days le. I know I should sleep early,but then... Exam coming soon,I have to study harder and harder le. People here are just too great. Hopefully I wont fail any of my paper. Please please please...don let me fail any of my exam paper....

=My Life=

Life are kinda busy this few weeks. Final examinations are coming soon. Luckily just complete 2 tests,1 presentation and 1 project. Moving to next assignment soon. Life had been covered by stress stress stress and stress this 2 weeks. Although life is quite stressful recently,but still having fun. Cooking lunch together,study together,stay in the tutorial room until late late at night.... This is my life for this few weeks. I think this type of life will maintain until the end of the examinations.

Just woke up 11am today. Study until 4am yesterday. Haha,long time din study till late late at night le. A bit headache now. I guess will have a short nap later. My dear best friend's birthday coming soon,what should I do for her birthday? Mm...still considering,haha. Missing my friends in Malaysia. Just chat with Mou,heard Mou said that she is quite lonely there. Hope that every thing will be fine to her,and hope that she wont stress herself.

I am happy that Yien was enjoy her celebration in Sunway Lagoon. She looks cheerful in the picture. This is what I want to see from her,this is the Yien that suppose to be. I think Fung are busy preparing her examinations as well. Long time did not see her online. I think she is trying her hard to add more oil le. Good Luck to you ya.

- Selamat Hari Raya Puasa -

Selamat Hari Raya Puasa to every one,haha. Although I did not celebrate it with any one,but I am very happy this 2 days. Monday was our AMCISA-MSA area gathering. It was quite fun. Lots of food too,keke,I also got contribute one o,don always think that I only know eat eat eat and eat. There are performance too. Ariel and Lee Hong,Your voice are nice,haha. But at the end of the event,my spec broken,no choice lo,play too much d,haha.

The next morning,I went to Jurong Point with Kwan Hui to repair my spec. After we bought some ingredients for our lunch,we went to Jessica's room. Why? Because today I am going to cook for our lunch with a bunch of friends!! We are going to cook Sambal Fishcake,Curry Chicken Wings,Myanmar Sallad,Vegetable and Mushroom soup. Nice right? I enjoy the feeling cooking,erm should say playing in the kitchen.

The food are served at 2 PM, Walao,that time we hungry until forgot "the feeling of hunger" already. Haha. The food was very nice. Other than that,we have Ice Lemon Tea and fruits after that too. Full until donno what to say. Haha,I really enjoy that day. After ate,we toke some funny picture too,crazy huh? Haha...

Hey guys,hope you all enjoy your Hari Raya Puasa too. Have a nice day!

This few days quite slack, did not study much. Exam will be coming very very soon, but I don't have that kind of mood to sit in front of my table and study. I afraid to look at math. Flipping the text books, I realize that most of the question I also don't know how to do. My brain is blank. I no longer have the confidence to work on my math. I do not wan to fail my paper, end up retake this subject in next semester.

Yesterday afternoon was raining. Yeah, Singapore long time din ranning le. Did you guys like to look at the rain and enjoy that kind of "cooling" admosphere? I love it. I enjoy looking at rain drop on the leaf, on the tree... I enjoy the wind, I enjoy the rain. Lots of people like to sleep during rainning, but I like to think when it's rain. I recall all the sweet memories that I spend with my family and friends. I felt a bit of loneliness here. It is a bit different from what I have in Malaysia.

What can I do? Life move on every single day. Peoples come peoples go. We have to think positively and be strong no matter what. Although I am bored with things that I do every day, but I still have to keep on doing it. Because this is what I chose to be.

Happy Saturday



I was so tired last Saturday,but I still happy for that day,haha. That day,I ony slept for about 4 hours,because early in the morning I have wake up I dress nice nice go to the Students' Union's "Student Leader Conference". I am represence Heritage Club to the conference together with my president and vice president. Student' Union (SU) really rich. I heard every SU event also will provide food,some more not those cheap cheap sandwitches plus teh tarik,but is those fruit tart,bla bla bla for breakfast. After the event,got lunch some more. Not those cheap cheap food,haha...but is those high class de,chicken lar,fish lar,this lar that lar....

After the conference,1 of my friend ask me to go eat "steamboat" at Bugis,buffet style de. Mm,I heard that,it is very famous in Singapore. Every day also full of people. You know lar,I love to eat so much,really cant tahan, Although I am tired,but,I also go with them,haha. But,what other people say are true,really lots of people there. But who care? As long as we have a place to sit and enjoy our food,haha. The food there are nice,yum yum yum.... We grab a lot of food,this lar that lar. I was amaze by the food there. We ate for 2 to 3 hours,and a few girls stading beside who were waiting for the sits stare at us. Who care? As long as I am the 1 who are sitting but not standing and wait. We puposely eat more and more,haha,just to make them wait longer.

After that,we go for shopping around that area and reach my hostel around 11:30 pm. I was so tired and sleepy,haha. I chose to dump all my assignment,homeworks and exams "back to my brain" ler. SO enjoy that day. Buddies,when you come to Singapore,let me bring you to those places k? But,make sure you pay yourself. Blek....

Assignments

Opportunity cost is the cost we pay when we give up something to get something else. There can be many alternatives that we give up to get something else, but the opportunity cost of a decision is the next best alternatives that we give up to get what we want. Opportunity cost is useful when evaluating the cost and benefit of choices. It also expressed in non-monetary terms.

Opportunity cost is evident in our daily life every time we make a decision. Earlier this year, NUS offered me a course in Arts and Social Sciences and NTU offered me in Economics. After a trip to both of the universities and some research, I decided to choose to go to NTU instead of NUS. I felt that NTU would be more suitable for me. NTU have the better environment, better culture and better locations. I knew that I would enjoy it if I studying here. NTU offers a direct entry into a four years honours programme in Economics but NUS does not. Deciding to go to NTU meant that rejecting NUS’ offer, which was my next best alternative.

I have time on Saturday for the activities of only one club. I decided to join the Welfare Services Club and not the Diving club after getting to know the weekly activities of both clubs. I chose the Welfare Services Club is because I love the feeling of helping others. I am given the opportunities to visit and help those who are in need. I gain enjoyment and satisfaction while learning a lot from the needy when I help them out. Hence, I chose to join the Welfare Services Club but not the Diving Club which is my next best alternative.

We make a lot of major and minor decisions everyday. Therefore, we must understand the cost and benefit for every choice so that we would not
regret with the decision we make.

Haha,this is my second assignment,guess what? I got A- from a "Ang Mo" tutor er,haha. Happy ler.

Starting from now,it will be a tough and busy period for me. It is because,the final exam are coming soon,and my math are still poor as it used to be. I need to spend more time on it,so that I can at least,pass in that subject. I do not want to retake that paper. It is not only wasting my time,it also is a shame. I want to do my best so that I can strike as good as I can.

Not only exams,I still need to do another 2 more english assignment. the title is "story telling". I need to interview some 1 and write a story base on the interviewee's history. My GOD!!!! Ask me write facts can lar,story? ARGH! Other than this,I still have to do a music project. Every thing still not getting on,I was lacking of the "spirit" to do the project.

There are a lot of duty that I need to do for my society as well. I just promoted to be the Welfare Director for this coming "International Game" on January 2007. International Game is the sports day that organize by students from different contries and for every 1 of the school especially international student. I guess I will be busy starting from December onwards. As a Secretary for Heritage Club,there are still a burden for me too. Is my fault to be talkative? Haih,end up,my president and other commitees agree that I will in charge of Laizon,which is the person who deal with all people outside,like teacher this and that. Cool huh? Lockily,there are still 3 more person to help me up. Phew,Thanks GOD.

So,I think I shall try my best to work out every thing ler,especiall yscore well in my exam. Guys,you all will support me one right?

Mid Autumn Festival

This is the place that we have fun during Mid Autumn Festival Celebration




Few days back was the Mid Autumn Festival. Every year,I will have re-union dinner with others relatives. This year was different. I did not celebrate it with my parents,but with 1 of my aunt in Singapore. I felt lucky because there are some 1 who cook and take care of me. :) That day was very hazy,but we still enjoy our dinner and moon cake,haha.

The week before that,MSA were organize a Mid Autumn Festival Celebration. It is under "Area Base",means that all MSAians gather in different area and celebrate together. We eat,see performance and have fun together. Haha,we also play with candles lantern and fire crackers,haha. Fun huh?

That day made me recall my Mid Autumn Festival that used to be. Really happy that I still can have fun on that day. At least,i don feel lonely.

SadNeSs

2 days back,I just got my Basic Mathmatics for Economics' result. I was quite sad about that. What I got is only 7 / 15. But a lot of my classmate got better than me,opps,not better,is much more better. Looking at them,I felt that I am so far apart from them. I am not as good as them,I am not as hardworking as them,I am not as clever as them.

Yesterday,I got my Microeconomics result. It is better,but I am not satisfied with it. I got 7 / 10. Some of my classmates can get 10/10.cool huh? But,it is not me. I hope that I can get better result in other subject as my math is not good. At least,my CGPA will be better. I know that I cant be "down" like this. I need to recover as soon as possible so that I can really concentrate and focus on my studies.

I feel sad because I feel that I am helpless to 1 of my best back in Malaysia. She felt left behind,she felt lonely. I really cant help her much. I want to "pull" her out from the negative world. I want she cheer up like what she used to be. I want to say "sorry" to her for left her out during the outings. But I also want to tell her that,no matter what happen in life,I will always think bout "the triplet". I wont give up 2 of you.

Cheer up my friend. Life will bring a lot of circumtances to us. We need to learn and over come it so that we can grow and achieve what we want in future. I understand your feeling as I am always left behind last time. Still remember? I can understand it because I am 1 of them who walk through all these. I learn to be strong because I have to...

Take care,ok?

HaPpY BiRthDaY


Just came back from Malaysia. It was a happy and busy week,busy for outings,haha. 23rd September is my birthday,and it is the day that i reached Malaysia,haha. I went out with a bunch of friends to 1U and "cheong k" in Neway. That day was Mun's birthday too. Wow,fun!! Long time din "cheong k" already,some more can meet my buddies. Haha,S. Yian,you still dress like last time during Form 6 wor,haha. After that,we and 7 piece of different flavour of Secret Recipe cake,yumm yumm...

After that day,I was celebrating my birthday with my parents and relatives. We were having dinner together in "Dak Fook". Yeah,can eat sea food,some more all are my favourite food. Receive alot of presents too. Really wanna thanks my friends and parents. They really used alot of effort to plan for my birthday. Thanks daddy and mummy,thanks my buddies.

Haha,I really waste alot of time this holiday. Actually planned to study and revise,planned to do my assignment. But,I went out every day. Went out with friends,went out with parents,meeting juniors,haha.. But really happy can see lots of friends is Malaysia. Really miss them.

Now,I am back to Singapore. Really tired yesterday,haha. Slept till this afternoon 2:30pm,cool huh? Really slack alot during this holiday. Now have to suffer and rush for my assignments. Gambate ya...

Hot Air Balloon


Long time did not update my blog ler. Haha,last Sunday I was so happy. We went to Bugis shopping, eat nice food, and have a ride with DHL Hot Air Balloon! Actually we planned to go the day before,but,it was raining. So,we changed our plan to Sunday lo. It was the last day for the free ride. Lucky huh?

We was so excited. We went for DHL hot air balloon after those seniors (girls) shop here and there. Keke...girls are like that lo. Riding on Hot Air Balloon was fun. We were shouting here and there,haha,paiseh lar. The hot air balloon flew quite high. It is higher than the National Library of Singapore and Suntec City. Wow....we capture alot of picture too. It was really fun!!!!

After the ride,we went to a coffee house nearby and have some food. Haha,it is something like pie but with different flovours. There are peach,apple,arange and strawberry,nice man!!! Although it is quite expensive but I still think that it is worth for it. After shopping,we went for dinner in one of my favourite restaurant "Ajisen Ramen". Wah,I miss the food so much. The Ramen is really nice but it is quite expensive too. Every was paying $15.20. My freind keep on complian,haha,stingy huh?

It is really nice that I can spent lots of time with my friend to have fun here and there. Haha,seems like I am here to enjoy but not study,this is what my father always say. By the way,I received some bad news today ler. My friend's father just passed away and he is now in Penang. Condolences to him. One of my friend could not get her tuition grant,and she decided to go back to Malaysia. Sad huh.. What I learn from here is,we must always appreciate the person around us and think positively all the time ler...

This Is Me

Coming alone to Singapore was not my choice. I do not know why I chose to be here. I do not understand why I wanted to be here. I do not foresee how I can survive alone here. I felt lonely the moment I stepped into NTU. Everything was unfamiliar to me, the buildings, the people, and every single thing.

To protect myself against the potentially harmful uncertainty, I act, in front of parents, acquaintances, friends. I am tired of being pretentious. I may appear strong outside, yet I feel weak inside. I feel unsettled deep in my heart, worrying about every single day spent in NTU, tormented by the possible problems I am going to face, and all these lead to sleeping difficulty. If only I were a little more sociable, a little more composed, and a little more mature, I may not need to worry as much as I am now. Or, am I simply being overly pessimistic?

I am still attached to my life at home. I miss my parents dearly, tears often stream down my face by just talking to them on the phone. I miss my peers in Malaysia too. It saddens me to realize that friends come and go in our life, and it is impossible to be together forever because we have different goals and visions to pursue. Nonetheless, I do not want to feel upset all the time as this affects my studies and my emotional stability.

Since this is the destination I have chosen for my next four years, I must adapt well and persevere through. I must have faith in myself and in the will of God. I will seek strength from the Lord. “Lord Jesus, I need You. Please bless me with faith and the strength to persist on to eventually achieve my goals.” Amen.

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My Uni Life

Some times I ask myself,why I have to study here? Why I want to come here alone and all my best friend in Malaysia? Why don I just study in Malaysia that have better life style and less competitors? Studying here is fun but at the same time there are stress too. There are alot of clever and hardworking people here. Is fun to know more people around the world and that is stress to compete with them.

If I am clever, If I am hardworking, If I am good enough, I shouldn't be worrying this much. I admit that I am not clever and not hardworking. Is hard for me to discipline myself to study every day. I miss my Form 6 life. Although is busy,but I still enjoy it. Friends, committee members, and juniors are always around me. Is really happy to be with them and have fun with them. But here is different. Every 1 is busy with their studies,luckily,there are still alot of chance for us to meet up and have our dinner together.

I always tell myself, I have to survuve in this condition no matter what. This is the university that i chose, this is the life that I chose, I have to do it. I know that, my parents and friends are always care and supporting me all this while. I couldn't dissapoint them,right? I know GOD will always bless me, and I believe that I can do it. Cheers....

A New Day Has Come,Yeah!!!


Yuhoo...I am so so so happy,you know why? I changed to another room already. Can live without dirty place, can live without smelly odour, can live without that fat fat and smelly smelly guy,haha. You know what? That dirty guy can wear the same cloth can not bath for 1 to 2 days, WTF!!!

Luckily that day got some time for me before I tapao my lunch from Canteen 9, and Hall 9 office is just there. I decided to complian and remind the officer to change a room for me. And, she allowed,Yeah!!! My new room mate is from EEE (Electric and Electronic Engineering) Year 4, and he is from Johor. Ka Ki Lang,from Malaysia too. He is so much more organize compare to that "fatty" and much more cleaner than him too...luckily,haha...

Just wanna share something about last Friday's concert. Tong Ern and Fan Yi Cheng came to NTU for concert too. Haha, sure i wont miss this chance to meet with stars, of course. Their performance are quite good, just that the responce are not that well, maybe they are not so famous in Singapore. Never mind, keep up your good work ya, Tong Ern and Fan Yi Cheng.

MeRdEkA NiGht

Wah...long time did not upgrade my blog already,haha. Last Saturday was a wonderful night. We are having a Masquerade Ball in Hall 15 function hall. That afternoon,I was so busy preparing. Preparing my formal attire and tie,preparing my gel,my mask(that i bought in Bugis),bla bla bla.... I wan to look handsome on that day mer,so must prepare earlier lo,haha.

When I reach there with a bunch of my friends,some of the MSAians are there already,including my buddies. Walao,they look so different that night,all guys are smart and girls are pretty. Some of them even decorate their own mask,haha,inovative right? At the begining of the event,there is a ice breaking. Every 1 have their own partner and we dance "in square",haha... After the dinner,we have alot of lame games too. It is happy that most of the Malaysian in NTU celebrating Merdeka Night together.

Not forget about 1 of the "small event" of the night. Ex-commitee member of Malaysian Student Association (MSA) were on stage. Ex-president were talking his speech,can see that he love MSA alot. After that,the new president on stage and introduce the new MSA commitee member,and I am 1 of them. Being award as the Vice President is really happy and chalenging. It is great to have a good chance to serve the association,the Malaysian...

Before the end of Merdeka Night,every 1 were dancing toeach other. Some romantic songs were played at that moment. Haha,I also dance ler,invited lots of pretty girls dance with me,guys out there,don be jealous k? There were some clubbing songs played at that time too. Every 1 was like crazy dancing there,haha... All also got "high" that night.

It was a tiring and exciting night. Really nice to have fun with so many people who are from a same country,hope that there is another "night" again.